A score of years ago in Europe, during a private talk with Ouspensky, he confessed that his own effort to open up the mystery of man's inner being had ended in failure. He had been Gurdjieff's star pupil, until he broke away. A.R. Orage, who established the school in America for Gurdjieff, died of a broken heart, one of his biographers told me, because of disillusionment. Both these men fully deserve our admiration, the first for his qualities of head, the second for his qualities of heart, and both for their literary gifts. Yet neither had established himself in the Soul-consciousness towards which they proposed to lead their students (the first in his school and the second in his lectures).
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